This Too Shall Pass

I am going through a time in my life where I can no longer comprehend what is happening ? Its a feeling of complete numbness .. like I no longer have any control on what happens around me. . If you believe in destiny, you would probably say I ACTUALLY have no control but the feeling is terrible.

I have been an optimistic person most of my life ... except of course in those random incidents in life which leave you completely flabbergasted.But now I feel like I can't continue .. I can't smile so that the world thinks I am happy..I can't pretend anymore..

I don't even understand anymore why people say " This too shall pass " cause it doesn't seem too..